God
all kinds of emotions
have run through me this day
I know that it is all ordained by You
but I still know not
the reason

YOU SAW
THE MOVIE, CHILD
YOU SAW THE HATRED
YOU FELT THE HATRED
AND YOU KNEW THAT IT HAD HAPPENED
TO YOU THE SAME WAY
YOU KNEW NOT HATRED BEFORE I PUT YOU
BEFORE THE PEOPLE TO LOVE THEM
YOU KNEW NOT HATRED
AND ITS LASTING AFFECT ON PEOPLE
BUT YOU KNOW THIS DAY
YOU SEE THE PEOPLE
WHICH I HAVE PUT
IN YOUR PATH
PEOPLE
FROM THE FORMER CHURCH
YOUR HEART ACHES
WHEN YOU SEE THEM
YOU CANNOT CONTROL
THIS EMOTION, CHILD
YOU ASK ME THAT IT NOT BE HATRED
BUT ONLY HURT
YOU ASK THAT THEY NOT FEEL
WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO YOU
YOU ASK TO GIVE ALL
A NEW START
HAVE YOU READ
THE STORY OF JOSEPH?
AND DID I NOT TEST THE BROTHERS
EVEN SO
THE WHOLE FAMILY
THROUGH THIS ONE SACRIFICE?
DID I NOT PUT THEM
BEFORE HIS FACE OFTEN?
DIDN'T I?
I HAVE MY REASONS
FOR THOSE TO SEE YOU
WHO WRONGED YOU
THEY
MUST REPENT
YOU DO NOT FEEL HATRED
TOWARD THEM, CHILD
YOUR HEART SIMPLY ACHES
YOU LONG TO SET THINGS RIGHT
YOU WANT TO OFFER
FORGIVENESS AND LOVE
WHEN IT HAS NOT BEEN PROVEN THAT
THEY HAVE REPENTED
HOW MANY MORE
ARE THEY ABUSING EVEN UNTO THIS DAY?
NO
CHILD
THIS IS NOT YOUR TEST
THIS IS THEIRS
OH YES
I COULD REMOVE YOU
AS FAR AS EAST IS FROM THE WEST
FROM THEM
BUT I HAVE A PLAN
A MIGHTY PLAN
FOR THEIR SALVATION

Will my heart always hurt this much
when I see them?

YES
CHILD
UNTIL THEY REPENT

I am willing to forgive them and walk away

BUT I AM NOT
THEY MUST REPENT FULLY BEFORE YOU AND I
THEY MUST BE WILLING TO RESTORE YOU
JUST AS MUCH AS
THEY DISHONORED YOU

But God, I am so weak
and I don't want my heart to show
to the people

THAT IS WHAT
I DO WANT TO SHOW
ARE YOU AFRAID
THAT THEY WILL SEE HOW DEEP
YOUR LOVE IS?

Yes, and that
then they would feel
as much shame
as I felt when they shamed me
I don't want anyone to feel as I did
No one

THEY
MUST FEEL THE SHAME
TO KNOW WHAT THEY DID TO YOU
THEY
MUST KNOW THIS DEPTH
OF LOVE
THAT YOU HAVE HAD
TO REDEEM THEM

I will not be able to control myself
and I will weep and not be able to stop

IS THAT
A SIGN OF WEAKNESS, CHILD,
THAT YOU SHOULD WEEP BEFORE THE PEOPLE?
I PUT YOU ON THE FLOOR ONCE BEFORE
ON A NIGHT WHEN
THE CALL WAS FOR THE CHURCH
TO LET GO OF ITS JUDGMENT
THEY SAW THE TEARS
THEY HEARD THE SOBS
BUT THEIR HEARTS
WERE HARD AS STONE
HAS ANYTHING
CHANGED?
WE WILL FIND OUT THIS DAY
DO NOT FEAR THE WEEPING
IT IS MY SOUL
THAT CRIES WITHIN YOURS

I WILL HOLD YOU
AS YOU SLEEP TONIGHT
AND YOUR HEART WILL NO LONGER
FEEL THE PAIN
COME, CHILD
THE PAIN IS FOR A REASON
THE TEARS ARE FOR A REASON
I LOVE YOU, CHILD
WHY DO YOU
FORGIVE SO EASILY?
YOU NEVER KNEW HATRED
UNTIL
YOU MET THESE PEOPLE
AND YET
YOU DESIRE TO SET THEM FREE
THEY CAN ONLY BE SET FREE
WHEN THEY REALIZE
WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO YOU
AND OTHERS LIKE YOU
AND REPENT

Hold me, please
and unto You I give my heart
Hold me close
Hold me until I feel no more pain
Hold me until the memories pass by
Hold me until You know that I will weep no more
Please hold me

AND
AS I HOLD YOU
I WILL SPEAK
ONE MORE PROMISE
A REVOLUTIONARY
YOU WILL RISE UP TO BE
ONE FOR WHICH
THIS WORLD HAS NEVER SEEN
YOU'VE SEEN IT ALL
YOU'VE FELT IT ALL
YOU KNOW WHAT MAN CAN DO
TO MAN
YOU KNOW THE HATRED
YOU KNOW THE SHAME
YOU KNOW THE FEAR
YOU KNOW THE CONTROL
YOU, MY FRIEND
WILL BE SENT ACROSS THIS EARTH
TO
SET THE CAPTIVES FREE
TO OPEN BLIND EYES
TO BRING FORTH
FREEDOM

A GENERAL AND MORE . . .
A REVOLUTIONARY
TO SET THIS WORLD ON EDGE
YOUR EDGE


God, I am ON FIRE!!!
I watched the movie which you told me to
and I know now what I am to ask for . . .
The word came today from the "harASSer,"
my privately assigned "accuser"
"You have to stop showing your emotions.
 You cannot show anger.
 Remember what the Bible says
that you will know a 'Christian' by their fruit
love, joy, patience, self-control, peace . . . etc."
That is the direct sign and confirmation
that leads me to ask You for
100 times the PASSION
that I have ever had
God, please give it to me
and give it to me in one dose
even if it kills me
Please don't let anyone count me
among the normal "Christians"
Let me live my life
with so much
PASSION
that no one will ever
be able to label me again

And what is she?
Is she crazy?
How can anyone
have so much
PASSION?
What drives her?
And let it be said that
SHE KNOWS THE LIVING GOD
and let that be all that is said

OH GOD, I PRAY FOR YOUR PASSION
I PRAY FOR YOUR LIFE
TO SURGE THROUGH ME
TO TOUCH THIS WORLD
MAY I NEVER CALM DOWN
MAY I LEAD MY LIFE WITH
SUCH RIGHTEOUS RAGE
THAT THE CHURCH-GOING CHRISTIAN WILL
PROCLAIM TO ALL
SURELY SHE CAN'T BE ONE OF US
AND HOW TRUE THAT WILL BE
GOD, MAKE ME LIKE YOU
SURGE THROUGH ME
CREATE IN ME A STANDARD OF EXCELLENCE
OF PASSION - OF POWER - OF LIFE - OF LOVE
THAT NO ONE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO
SIMPLY LOOK AT ME
AND WALK AWAY
BUT THAT THEY WILL BE CHANGED
WITH ONE ENCOUNTER
I HAVE NOT TIME TO SIT IDLY BY
AND LOOK LIKE A GOOD CHRISTIAN
I DID THAT FOR 20 YEARS
AND NO ONE BECAME A CHRISTIAN
BY MY LIFE
BUT NOW  I ASK YOU TO
MAKE ME RADICAL
MAKE ME FREE TO CHANGE THIS WORLD
GIVE ME GOLDEN GLOVES
TO KNOCK THE EVIL IN THIS WORLD OUT

AND SO, MY CHILD
I BELIEVE THAT YOU UNDERSTOOD
THE POINT OF THE MOVIE
AND YES
YOUR PRIVATE ACCUSER SET YOU UP
FOR VICTORY ONCE MORE
A COWARD HE IS
A COWARD HE REMAINS
FOR HE SPEAKS
THAT FOR WHICH MAKES THIS WORLD
COMFORTABLE
WHILE IT WALKS ITS WAY INTO HELL
YES
THERE IS A TIME FOR PEACE
AND GOOD TIDINGS
AND HAPPINESS SO RICH
BUT NOW IS THE TIME FOR WAR
IT IS SURELY WAR-TIME
AND I PLACE THE GOLDEN GLOVES
ON YOU THIS NIGHT
BOX YOU WILL
SATAN RIGHT OUT OF THE RING
AND YES
WOMEN CAN BOX
IT IS A SPIRITUAL EXERCISE
IT IS LIFE AND BREATH TO YOU
MY CHILD
FOR WE WILL DESTROY SATAN
WITHIN THE REALM
FOR WHICH YOU WALK

PASSION
YES, CHILD
I WILL DELIVER AS YOU ASK
AND YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
DO NOT REGRET
THE MANIFESTATIONS
FOR JOKINGLY IN DAYS PAST
YOU WOULD COMMENT
THAT YOU NEEDED
A "SURGE PROTECTOR"
WHEN I WOULD SURGE
THROUGH YOU
BUT THIS WILL BE
MUCH, MUCH MORE
THAN YOUR BODY COULD
EVER CONTAIN
AND DO NOT EVEN BOTHER
TO EXPLAIN
I WILL EXPLAIN
THROUGH YOUR ACTIONS

YES
YOUR ACCUSER
SET YOU UP AS ALWAYS
AND ONCE AGAIN
HE LED YOU RIGHT INTO
THE PATH OF RIGHTEOUSNESS
CALM DOWN
I DON'T THINK SO!

"SIT QUIETLY
AND WATCH YOUR CHILDREN GROW UP
SIT AND LET THE CHURCH TAKE CARE OF ITSELF
SIT AND BE QUIET"

NO, CHILD
YOU ARE
TROUBLE
AND ALWAYS WILL BE
SET THIS WORLD ON EDGE
KNOCK ALL EVIL OUT
OF THE RING
YOU ARE THE WINNER
A GOLDEN GLOVE WINNER
EVEN THIS NIGHT
EXCELLENCE
IS WHAT YOU SEEK
I AM
YOUR COACH
AND WE HAVE WON ONCE AGAIN
SET THIS WORLD ON FIRE, CHILD
SET IT ON FIRE
AND SHOW THEM
MY HEART
SHOW THEM
MY PASSION
SHOW THEM
MY JOY
SHOW THEM
MY LOVE
SHOW THEM
MY POWER
SHOW THEM
WHO
YOU HAVE COUNSELED WITH
THESE 5 YEARS
REVEAL
YOUR COACH
YOUR FRIEND
YOUR COMMANDER-IN-CHIEF
YOUR LORD AND KING

THE RESURRECTION
IS WHAT I SPEAK OF
ALL OF WHAT YOU SEE
IN CHURCHES
THIS DAY IS BUILT ON
GOOD BEHAVIOR
IT IS THE
TRAINING AND DISCIPLINE
OF GOOD LITTLE SOLDIERS
BUT THERE IS
NO POWER
THERE HAS NOT BEEN
A DEATH
SO THERE IS
NO RESURRECTION

SHOW THEM
THE RESURRECTION
PROVE THAT I HAVE RISEN
FROM THE DEAD
PROVE LIFE
PROVE ME

I will, Good Buddy, I will

BE LIFE AND LOVE AND LORD AND KING WITHIN ME
AND DON'T EVER LET ME CALM DOWN

OK


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