HEARTBEAT

SILENT

GOD, can I be silent now?
Can I stop
revealing my heart and Your Ways within me?
It's such a personal thing, and yet, You had me write
and tell the world
But
I'm tired
I'm so very tired
of the
misunderstanding
and the
jealousy of others

I just want
to be held by You
and not tell how it feels

I want
to be empowered
and not have people watch
and judge and question

I want
to have COMMUNION with You
and not have others
condemn me

I want
to Love You
and not have to record my feelings

I want
to walk the streets and touch people
and be
anonymous

I want
to be Your friend
Your SECRET friend
Just like I was in the beginning
when You first Touched me

Remember?

Do You remember
when it was just the
two of us?

I MISS THOSE DAYS!
I miss the times
in the
SECRET PLACE
when I could stay and stay and stay
and You wouldn't say
"IT'S TIME TO GET UP AND WRITE!"

I don't want
my life to be a story
I don't want
it to be an example!
I don't want
anyone to know my heart
to know how You Touch me
with just a glance and I'm
"GONE"

They don't need to know
Your Humor and how You tease me in Love

They don't need to know
that often You sit by my bed at night
and hold my hand

They don't need to know
that often I know Your Thoughts
without You even speaking

They don't need to know
any
of this!

I WANT MY GOD BACK!!!

I WANT IT
TO BE
JUST YOU AND ME!

I WANT YOU!

Can I be silent now?

***
YES, CHILD, YOUR WORK IS OVER
JOB FINISHED
SILENT NOW ~ FOREVER SILENT ~ FOREVER MINE!
LET'S SEE HOW LONG THIS LASTS


THE BEAT GOES ON...