HEARTBEAT

DOESN'T LOOK RIGHT!

NO
My life doesn't look right
doesn't look "Christian"
Where is
that "wonderful plan" GOD
has for my life?
Where is
the happiness and wealth and security
so many churches promise?

NO
My life is different
I carry a Cross
It's humiliating
It hurts
It takes me
to the deepest of despair
where there is nothing to hang onto
absolutely nothing!

NO
My life doesn't look "Christian"
I do not look
successful or happy all the time
There are times
when I have no place to lay my head
There are times
when I cannot return home
without being abused
There are times
when the loneliness is so consuming
that I beg GOD
to take me
"HOME"

NO
My life doesn't look "Christian"
I can't freely recite Bible Scripture
and I don't know all the verses
to the new choruses
but my heart
SINGS!
It SINGS a song of PRAISE
to a GOD who allows me
to taste His suffering
to know Him
in ways
others fear to

NO
I don't look "Christian"
and
I don't have the latest bumper sticker
and
I can't seem to find the "wonderful plan" for my life
but
I now know hunger
and loneliness
and desperation
so deep that often I don't want
to take another breath
I know what it's like
to live in fear
and pain
and abuse

NO
My life doesn't look "Christian"
but
neither did Jesus' as He stumbled
carrying His Cross to the hill
to die for me
For you see
I'm learning to die as He died
not a simple death
or a peaceful death
but
the death of a criminal
of one betrayed
For once I can lay it ALL down
ALL my dreams
ALL my hopes
ALL my plans
for
happiness, peace and safety
Then I'm ready to receive
Jesus'
RESURRECTED LIFE
in me

NO
It doesn't look like the typical
"Christian" life
I'm not finely dressed and always wearing
a triumphant smile
but
I'm carrying the Cross
the best I can
Just don't look at me and judge
church
For one day
GOD will ask you
to carry the Cross
to prove your sonship
and
you will no longer
call it a
"wonderful plan"

YES
GOD has a plan for our lives

DEATH UNTO LIFE!
SURRENDER
OF
EVERYTHING!


THE BEAT GOES ON...