GOD’S EDITORIALS

Day 1
3 am - I am awakened with the words to my spirit,
"IT IS A BASTARD CHILD
THAT DOES NOT RECOGNIZE THE VOICE OF
ITS OWN FATHER"
I had just fallen asleep on a night when God had told me that I
wouldn't be writing the website for 3 weeks, but . . .
He still speaks and there is a FIRE within me to write
Only the astute and very interested will find these pages, He tells me
And so the story continues . . .

I had been asked by both God and man
to play a part in the rising of a group of apostles
but the words of recent that I gave them
they rebuked and said that they were not of God
God enters with His view point and I write
I don't want to even think about
how many times I have been called the voice of Jezebel
in these last 6 years - but each time, it was one too many
For those who spoke the words are under a curse
of the Almighty for not knowing His Voice
and accusing His servant of speaking in rebellion and deception
I don't want to play games any more
I want the guilty put on trial and the innocent set free

Earlier this evening as I was worshipping, God showed me
a short version of my last 6 years of obeying His Voice
It was a simple vision of myself carrying a big, black cross
upon my back to a place of its setting
I was alone in this adventure except for Jesus
who held my hand when I thought
that I could carry the Cross no longer
Finally, the Cross was put in place and I was placed upon it
and the many people shouted out their curses and spit upon me
As I laid upon the Cross - I looked at Jesus who stood right in front of me
He held a notebook and when each insult was hurled my way
He would record it and look around to see who said it
and wrote their name down
I guess I died, because the next thing I saw was
Jesus carrying me to a tomb
It was dark inside and I thought that it was going to be boring
just waiting for my time to advance OUT
But as I waited He began to teach me things
He sang to me and He read to me from Song of Solomon
I knew that I would be in this tomb for 3 weeks

I asked Jesus if it was a tomb, and He replied that it was more
like a bomb shelter
I longed to look outside, but He advised me that
I wouldn't like what I saw

UPON THE CROSS, YOU DIDN’T DIE, LITTLE ONE
BUT RELIGION
JUST AS I DIED UPON THE CROSS AND DEATH WAS CONQUERED
YOU BORE THE CROSS FOR FREEDOM - FREEDOM FROM RELIGION
AND THE FATHER IS PUTTING TO DEATH
THE REST OF THE REMNANT THIS DAY

I don't understand it completely, but I know in part what He means
Just as the apostle sent to me the latest newsletter
there was only one line where
I became outraged - but I had to speak up
I could not let it stand as Truth for all to see
He wrote back that he could not believe
that I would be so upset with just one verse
But I was and God was
and what it represented is very interesting . . .

As God was reading to me out of Song of Solomon
He read the verses over and over again about
the woman being a sealed garden
Now, what does that mean?
Of course, in the story, it pertains to a virgin
but to God in His teaching to me it represents one who
is completely pure from religion
A sealed garden unto Him, alone
If there is any penetration by religion in any form
then a bastard is created and not a true son

The apostles claim to be the "man-child" that God is bringing forth
and to that cause - I agree that they were destined to be
but when they divert from His Voice to follow Scripture that
God does not ordain
then they become a bastard child and just as useless
as the present-day church

They do not allow women to lead in any situation
They do not believe that women can submit only to God
without going through their husband or father
They do not believe in the Gospel, then

I lay awake listening to the kids next door jumping into their pool
I didn't want to write - after all it's 3 am
but there is a FIRE upon me
And I begin to think about time and how the kids
making all the noise next door
doesn't even bother me
They are just kids and time means nothing because they are not confined
to schedules and appointments and rules as often adults are
And I think of the church as it is
and I long for the freedom of youth to jump into a pool at all hours
and not worry about the time or the noise
It's not extremely symbolic, but it does represent where I am coming from
For 6 years I have spoken the exact words that God has told me to
and because of that I have lost much and have had to carry a Cross
a long distance, listening to much that is ungodly by
those who claim to be godly
And I wish that I had never walked into a church
I wish that I had never met a pastor
I wish that I had never acknowledged modern-day "Christianity" in any way
for it was the hatred of those who call themselves Christians
that God used to put religion to death
and I will surely do my duty to keep it dead for the rest of my days
I long to jump into the pool at all hours - no rules - no time limits
and just live freely without all the memories of the people
who spoke words of hatred to stop me

JUMP INTO THE POOL - IN THE SPIRIT, CHILD
AND I WILL BAPTIZE YOU ANEW WITH WORDS
FROM MY KINGDOM OVER YOU
YOU HAVE BEEN CURSED SINCE THE DAY I RAISED YOU UP
BUT THIS IS MY DAY AND YOUR DAY
GO SWIMMING
LET THE WATER WASH OFF ALL THE WORDS OF THE CHURCH
THEY ARE NOT WORDS THAT WILL STAY
WASH THEM OFF

As the bombs fall outside the tomb
I am protected
I am not allowed to help anyone for few know where I am anyway
God has hidden me away well
and would they still come to me when they finally
realize that they are bastards
serving Jezebel instead of a true son or daughter of God
serving and loving God?
It does not matter
I filed away the last of my personal assignments today
I had hoped that some would contact me
and God had me keep their files upon my desk
but alas, no one calls or writes
and the bombs fall

Is there forgiveness?
Is there love?
Would I forgive the people who hurled insults at me
and kicked me out of their institutions?
Anyone that knows me well - knows that I would
Anyone that knows me well - knows that I would
lay down my life to keep them from
making the mistakes that they made
but I laid down my life and it didn't stop them
Only God can stop them
but even as in my accident - it is not always a gentle stopping - or painless
I lay awake at night for drugs are not my forte and
I would rather endure the pain
but the pain that will fall upon the church will be well beyond
anything that mankind can soothe with simple pills
It will not only be a physical pain in many cases, but a lasting emotional pain
and an upending and disorientation that takes the person
into an area of confusion
I know the feeling for I was dizzy for days after the accident
All I could do was lie still
Each time I awoke, I would ask God if He was OK
It has kind of been my by-line all these years
He would knock me out in the Spirit and as soon as I came to
I would ask Him how He was
It's just a matter of loving and caring as you would for a spouse or a child
And of course, God has done very well without me all these years
but it doesn't hurt to have someone nearby that asks Him how He's doing
I don't ask for other things besides the safety of my kids
because I'm hoping that this is not a long-term contract
that He has issued to me
and that I'll be able to go "home" soon

Another concern of the apostles was that I call myself a "prophet"
and not a prophetess
Actually, I don't call myself anything, but God has always
referred to me as a prophet
as the prophets of old
I have met many of them in visions and they impart their anointings to me
To me - I am used to this, almost
but to others it just means that I have been deceived
I don't really care anymore what people think
for I know without a doubt that God will ensure that I finish my Calling
but I do become concerned about what happens to people
because of their judgments over me
It is a simple matter to God and He does keep track

What do the days ahead hold?
God says that I have to wait for the vision to unfold tomorrow
Maybe I can sleep now -right, God?

AND WHY DO I KEEP YOU AWAKE SUCH LONG HOURS?
I ENJOY YOUR COMPANY
AND WE TALK AND WE SUP AND WE ARE CLOSE FRIENDS

BUT THE WARNING YOU HAD TO PLACE TONIGHT
FOR ALL TO READ
FOR I WILL RETURN THE EVIL
WHICH HAS NOT BEEN REPENTED OF
OVER YOUR HEAD
THESE WERE NOT SIMPLE GESTURES OF IGNORANCE
OVER THE YEARS
BUT CONTINUAL JUDGMENT OF MY SERVANT
FOR OBEYING ME
I WILL NOT LET IT SLIDE BY
AND THE TIME IS NOW FOR THE BOMBS TO FLY
GO TO SLEEP NOW, CHILD
AND REST WELL
FOR ON TOMORROW WILL WE START PLANS FOR A CHURCH
OF LOVE AND LIFE
AND FULL SONSHIP
NO MORE BASTARDS
NO MORE PEOPLE WHO PROCLAIM TO KNOW ME
BUT DON'T RECOGNIZE MY VOICE
NO MORE ACCUSATIONS OF JEZEBEL SPIRITS
BUT ONLY
LIFE AND LOVE
ONLY
*******

Day 2
Verse used in Apostles newsletter:
"Youths oppress my people, women rule over them."
Isaiah 3:12

I awake to a vision of a man apparently unpacking boxes
It is his job
He works in what appears to be a prison
He is suppose to unpack the boxes if the items are needed now
or simply store the extra supplies
As the new boxes arrive, he easily sees that there is no room to store
the new supplies
He opens the boxes one by one and consumes what is in each one
The guards come and place him in handcuffs for stealing
He told them that he had no more room to store the boxes
and that on the outside of the box
It simply said, "Drink this" so he was afraid if the "stuff" was
stored too long that it would lose its potency

Come with me through the facility and see if you can determine
what type of prison this is:
Men walk about freely with a smile on their face and easy greetings
Many of them carry a Book and read portions of the
Book to people they run into
Off to the side is a room for women, only
They are free to move about within the room,
but they cannot come out where the men walk about
There is one more room for youth because -
well, simply because they are youth
The facility is run pretty well
There are few complaints
Once in a great while a box from the storeroom is opened
and the people are allowed to drink from the contents
Even the women and children - but it is delivered to them within their cells
and they are told how much they can drink

Let's return to the worker from the storeroom:
The men who found him stealing discuss his case in another room
If they decide to imprison him then he will tell others of the abundance
of what is in the storeroom
They decide that it is much better if the people just live in ignorance
and follow the rules of the facility
If he erroneously gives out what he has drunk then they will no longer
have control over the people
They decide to release him from the facility

They angrily release the man into the streets
They curse him as he leaves
He breathes in the air and thanks God for his FREEDOM
He sees children sitting on the sidewalk and simply speaks words of greeting
The Anointing from the boxes flows out of his being
and the children are touched
He sees women entering a grocery store and comments simply
on the weather
The Anointing from the boxes flows out of his being and they, too
are touched
And now he knows why he was set free from the prison

SERVANT OF THE MOST HIGH GOD,
THIS IS YOUR STORY
FOR YOU SAW THE ANOINTING COMING AND COMING AND COMING
AND YET, THE CHURCH WOULD NOT USE IT
FOR IF THEY USED TOO MUCH AT ONE TIME THEN THEY COULD
NO LONGER
CONTROL
THE PEOPLE

THE PEOPLE OF THE CHURCH ARE IN A PRISON
SET UP BY MEN AND THEIR RULES - NOT MY RULES
THEY GIVE OUT JUST ENOUGH TO KEEP THE PEOPLE THERE
THE MEN ARE HAPPY IN THEIR PRESTIGIOUS FREEDOM
BUT THE WOMEN AND YOUTH ARE NOT ALLOWED
FREEDOM TO DO OR BE ALL THAT I WANT THEM TO DO OR BE

WHY WON'T THEY KEEP YOU WITHIN THEIR RANKS?
6 YEARS NOW YOU HAVE DRUNK OF MY SPIRIT
AND YOU ARE SURELY FULL EVEN AS YOU WERE THAT FIRST NIGHT
THAT I TOUCHED YOU
BUT YOU ARE PROOF THAT THE SYSTEM IS NOT MY SYSTEM
YOU ARE PROOF THAT I GIVE IN ABUNDANCE AND WITH
NO
REQUIREMENTS
YOU ARE PROOF THAT THEY ARE WRONG
AND THEY WANT TO SEND YOU FAR, FAR AWAY

AND THAT IS WHAT I WILL DO FOR YOU, CHILD
FOR YOUR MISSION WITHIN THE PRISON IS DONE
YOU ARE TO SHARE THE ANOINTING WITH ALL THAT YOU MEET
YOU WILL NOT BE AN EMBARRASSMENT TO THE PEOPLE YOU MEET
BUT YOU WILL BE LIFE AND LOVE AND HAPPINESS AND JOY
AND POWER AND THEY WILL NOT TURN YOU AWAY
BUT FLOCK TO YOU

YOU, MY SERVANT, ARE LIKE A SMALL CHILD SITTING
IN THE FRONT ROW
OF A VERY IMPORTANT MEETING AND YOU CONTINUE
TO SHOUT TO THE MAN SPEAKING,
"YOUR FLY IS OPEN"
THE MAN WOULD RATHER CONTINUE HIS SPEECH
TO CONTROL AND BRIDLE THE PEOPLE
THEN COVER HIS OWN SHAME
HE SPEAKS AND SPEAKS
AND YOU WONDER WHY HE WON'T LISTEN
BECAUSE HE KNOWS THAT THE PEOPLE DON'T SEE HIS SHAME
THEY ONLY HEAR THE MESMERIZING WORDS
AND THEY ARE CONTENT TO FOLLOW
HE COULD STAND THERE COMPLETELY NAKED
AND THEY WOULD LISTEN
FOR THEIR SPIRITS ARE NOT ALIVE AND THERE IS NO DISCERNMENT
BUT ALAS, YOUNG CHILD
I REMOVE YOU FROM YOUR POSITION WITHIN THE CHURCH
OF SHOWING THEM THEIR ERRORS
THEY DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT ANYMORE
THEIR TIME OF JUDGMENT IS NOW

AND ALAS, I RETURN TO THE FIRST VISION I SHARED
WITH YOU THIS DAY:
YOU ARRIVE WITH ME UPON A MOUNTAIN TOP
HAND - IN - HAND
I SHOUT TO CELEBRATE OUR ARRIVAL AND I SPEAK TO YOU
THAT THE WHOLE LAND IS YOURS
THIS IS NOT A SMALL GIFT OR A GIFT UNDESERVED
BUT AS YOU HAVE STRUGGLED WITH THE CHURCH ALL THESE YEARS
YOU HAVE REMOVED ALL THAT WOULD HINDER YOU FROM
MINISTERING TO THE WORLD
THE CHURCH PLAYED ITS STUBBORN PART IN YOUR LIFE
BUT IT WAS NECESSARY
FOR THAT FOR WHICH YOU FIGHT ON THE OUTSIDE
THERE IS OFTENTIMES A SMALL REMNANT WITHIN
THAT MUST BE CAST OUT
AND NOW YOU ARE FREE TO GIVE OUT MY ABUNDANCE
TO THE WORLD
WITHOUT INHIBITIONS
WITHOUT THE RULES OF MAN
WITHOUT - WITHOUT - WITHOUT
SOMEONE STANDING OVER YOU CRITICIZING YOU

JUST GIVE, YOUNG ONE
WHEREVER I SEND YOU
JUST GIVE AND I WILL BE THE ONE WITHIN YOU GIVING OUT
ALL THAT I AM TO THOSE WHO WILL TAKE ME IN
IT IS A FREE WORLD
THE CHURCH SETS UP SHOP TO MAKE MONEY
AND CONTROL THE PEOPLE
BUT THEIR TRUE INTEREST IS NOT ME OR THE PEOPLE
ONLY SELFISH DESIRES

WALK THE STREETS FREELY WHEN I RELEASE YOU
FROM THE BOMB SHELTER
AND KNOW THAT I WILL TOUCH MANY THROUGH YOU EVERY DAY
EVERY SINGLE DAY WILL BE AN ADVENTURE OF LIFE AND LOVE
AND MY KINGDOM BEING BUILT IN FREEDOM

I LOVE YOU, DEAR ONE
YOU HAVE TRULY FOLLOWED ME WHERE NO MAN
OR WOMAN HAS COME BEFORE
DID I NOT PROMISE YOU YEARS AGO TO TAKE YOU
UPON THE ANCIENT PATH
AND NOW YOU SIT WITH YOUR BODY BROKEN
AND YOUR SPIRIT SULLEN
AND YOUR SOUL HURTING
BUT WE MADE IT TO THE TOP
WE ARE SURELY AND COMPLETELY AT THE TOP

NOW, GIVE OUT MY ANOINTING TO ALL WHO I TELL YOU TO
GIVE IT OUT
GIVE IT OUT AS FREELY AS I TOUCHED YOU
WITH IT THAT VERY FIRST NIGHT
DO YOU REMEMBER THAT FIRST NIGHT?
IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE A NIGHT FOR MEN ONLY
BUT I TELL YOU THIS DAY
ALL WHO ARE READY TO RECEIVE MY ANOINTING WILL RECEIVE IT
DESPITE THE RULES OF MAN

COME ALONG, CHILD
MORE VISIONS TODAY
I LOVE YOU
I DO
BACK TO SONG OF SOLOMON WE GO . . .
LESSONS FOR MY BRIDE
OF MY LOVE


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Day 3

Thank You, my Friend for an incredible evening!
You brought me into a praise and worship service lead by only the youth
I was the only adult in the room and I thought these kids were going
to worship all night long
What a joy!

YES, MY FRIEND, AND TONIGHT WAS TO PROVE TO YOU
ONCE MORE
THAT WHAT I HAVE PROMISED
I WILL DO
I PROMISED YOU THAT THE YOUTH WOULD LEAD THE WORLD
IN WORSHIP AND THEY WILL
JUST AS YOU EXPERIENCED TONIGHT
THEY WERE SINCERE - THEIR PRAYERS WERE RIGHT
THEY ENTERED MY PRESENCE AND BROUGHT ME MUCH GLORY
DO ALL YOUTH OPPRESS AS THE VERSE FROM ISAIAH STATES?
NO, SOME ARE MADE TO DECLARE MY GLORY
AND LEAD THIS WORLD TO WHERE IT NEEDS TO BE
ON ITS KNEES BEFORE ME

What a treat!
What a holy treat it was to see the youth praising You with such abandon
The songs went on and on for there was no adult to tell them to leave
They have full use of the building and all they wanted to do was Love You
Doesn't it just make Your Heart sing, Mighty One?

AND MY SOUL DID DELIGHT IN THEIR PRAISE
AND THE INTENTION OF THEIR HEARTS
FOR THEY DO ASK FOR ALL OF ME
AND I TOLD YOU TO CALL FOR THEIR ANOINTINGS
TO BE RAISED THIS NIGHT

FOR THIS ONE TIME
I LET YOU HIDE IN THE DISTANCE AND DECREE IN SILENCE
BUT DON'T EXPECT IT TO LAST
IT WAS A SPECIAL NIGHT TO SHOW WHAT IS TO COME

God, I'm just so PROUD of You and the kids
You have brought them so far and they don't look for adult supervision
but only to bring You Honor

At one point, I looked at the kids worshiping and
I remembered well my days of wooing You
I was so desperate for You
I would do anything and everything to have You constantly in my life
I, at first, wanted You to fall heavier with Your Spirit tonight
to show them more of Your approval
of their praise, but then I realized that it is not just praise
that brings Your continual Presence
but obedience
I pray that each of the kids tonight would be given obedient hearts
that please You at every turn
I began to feel almost like an old married woman
as they sang with such passion
but I also know that our love is different now and
just one short glance from You
and I am "down and out" and become a spectacle
but I have saved the rest of the evening for You, my Friend
in the quiet of my office
Got plans?

AND WHAT DID YOU DESIRE TO DO ON THE WAY HOME?

Play Your favorite love songs and sing as loud as I can
with all the passion that is within me, to You

YOU HAVEN'T LOST IT, KID!
YOU JUST SAVE IT FOR OUR TIMES ALONE
THAT IS ALL
AND FOR NOW - THAT IS WISE
COME, LOVE
COME

"You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
You're too wonderful for comprehension
You're like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom?
Who can fathom the depths of Your Love?
Lord, You're beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthroned above

I stand, I stand in awe of You"

NOT FOR LONG
I'M TAKING YOU "HOME" FOR AWHILE

*****
Day 4

Thanks, God, for the adventure!!!!

I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO ASK
AND YOU KNOW THAT YOU MUST WAIT
PUTTING IT ON THE WEBPAGE WILL NOT SPEED UP LIFE
AND MY WAYS

Just trying . . . and hoping . . .

AND WAITING . . . PATIENTLY?

Not exactly
You were so right - when I see someone hurting
I want to help
I want to tell them the BIG PICTURE
I want to explain what You are doing, commission them
and have a happy ending

BUT THE TIME HAS NOT QUITE COME
FOR YOUR WORK WITH THE PEOPLE

But I hate to see them suffer

THEY WILL ONLY COME TO YOU WHEN THEY ARE READY
TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR GIFTS BEFORE ME
OR THEY WILL SIMPLY USE YOU AND SET YOU ASIDE

But sometimes, I don't mind being used if You are the One
that they Glorify in the end

BUT WOULD THEY?
IF THEY ARE NOT TRULY THANKFUL FOR MY WORK
WITHIN YOU AND ACKNOWLEDGE IT
DO YOU TRULY THINK THAT THEY WOULD
ACKNOWLEDGE ME, TOO?

I guess I didn't think too deeply on that one

YOU CAN SET THE STAGE
AND THE RESULTS WILL COME AT A LATER DATE
BUT SET IT ALL UP
I KNOW YOU ARE EXCITED TO WORK IN THIS WAY
BUT I MUST HOLD YOU BACK FOR NOW
FOR THE HEARTS TO CHANGE
THE MIND FEARS, BUT THE HEART IS THE LAST THING TO CHANGE
AND IT MUST BE CHANGED PERMANENTLY

Gotcha!
Enter a young girl - only 17 and yet, she fears wherever she goes
Her house is literally haunted with a principality and many, many demons
but all that she knows is that she is completely fearful in her house
and has horrible, scary dreams

I see in a vision, not evil occurring, but God Himself bringing to the house
a piece of "exercise equipment" and He speaks that He is calling
this young girl into the ministry of deliverance
This is the only way to truly grab her attention is to present it to her
in a life-threatening way
The demons and one principality fill the house
They are allowed to go pretty far with their schemes
and she is so scared
Can they truly hurt her?
No, but she doesn't know that

I wait for I know the whole lay-out
I've been told by God where to send the principality
when it is cast out of the house
I know the interpretations to her dreams
I know how to commission her and give her perfect peace
but first she will contact the Pastor of her church
and we will wait
Most pastors do not have Authority over principalities - especially this one
He won't know how to interpret the dreams or commission her
but this is all part of the church realizing that there are people
that are part of the Spirit
that have lived in uncompromising stances and are available
to do the "dirty work"
How long will it take?
I guess this is why God told me not to look outside the "bomb shelter"

YES, IT IS
BUT I ALLOWED THIS ONE LOOK FOR YOU TO KNOW
WHAT I AM DOING
I AM TESTING THE PEOPLE TO THE END OF THEIR SPIRITUALITY
I AM SHOWING THEM THAT THEY DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH OF ME
TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD WITHOUT FEAR

Can I help her now?

NOT EVEN IF YOU PAID ME A NICKEL
THE TIME WILL COME, YOUNG ONE
REST IN ME
LOOK TO ME
SHE IS JUST ONE EXAMPLE
YOU KNOW NOT OF THE OTHERS
BUT MANY OF THE CASES ARE JUST AS EXTREME
AND THE CHRISTIANS DO NOT SLEEP WELL THESE DAYS
THOSE WHO HAVE NOT SURRENDERED COMPLETELY TO ME
ARE SEEING VERY PLAINLY WHERE THEY LACK
I AM THE GREAT FILLER
BUT THEY MUST COME TO ME
AND I WILL SEND MANY OF THEM TO YOU
BE READY
BUT FOR NOW - REST

I find REST so boring

I NOTICED
BUT WHEN I SAY TO REST - I MEAN TO STOP FROM THE ACTIVITY
THAT DRAWS YOU AWAY FROM ME

Oh - then we can still have FUN together!

EXACTLY

I thought REST was like when a parent puts a child down for a nap
so that they can have some free time
You do remember that as a child - I never took naps?

AND SO, I WILL KEEP LIFE VERY INTERESTING FOR YOU, YOUNG ONE
NO NAPS
BUT LOVE WILL COME YOUR WAY
IN ABUNDANCE
LOVE THAT YOU CANNOT RUN FAST ENOUGH FROM
LOVE THAT WILL BE AT YOUR DOORSTEP
LOVE THAT WILL KEEP YOU VERY, VERY BUSY

Did I ask for THAT?

IN A WAY
YOUR HEART ASKS FOR IT
EVEN IF YOUR MIND NEVER SPEAKS THE WORDS
AND IT IS IN MY PLANS
SO I WILL BRING IT ON
JUST WAIT
RUN, IF YOU THINK IT WILL HELP
BUT I KNOW THAT IT WON'T
SHALOM, FRIEND
I WILL GIVE YOU THE VERY BEST OF EVERYTHING
AND THEN SOME
AND YOU CAN KEEP YOUR NICKEL

Love You!

HAPPY DAY!
BTW - YOU WERE THE "EXERCISE EQUIPMENT" THAT
I SET IN THE CHURCHES
THAT YOU WERE A PART OF THESE LAST 6 YEARS
JUST A SIMPLE PIECE OF "EQUIPMENT"
BUT THE PASTORS WOULD WALK BY AND SAY THAT IT WAS USELESS
AND NON-CONFORMING
THEY SPOKE OF THE "EQUIPMENT" BEING TOO HARD TO LEARN TO USE
AND NOT ENOUGH IMMEDIATE BENEFIT WAS GAINED FROM IT
AND SO, I HAVE TAKEN OUT THE "EXERCISE EQUIPMENT"
THAT WAS YOU
AND AM REPLACING IT WITH "EXERCISE EQUIPMENT"
THAT THEY WILL TRULY RUN FROM
THIS "EQUIPMENT" WILL NOT SPEAK IN WORDS OR PHRASES REBUKING
AND THEN LOVING
BUT IT WILL TAKE THEM TO THEIR DEEPEST FEARS IN EVERY AREA AND
LEAVE THEM THERE
THEY CAN WALK PAST IT, BUT IT WILL FOLLOW THEM EVERYWHERE
WHERE THEY WALK - WHERE THEY SLEEP - WHERE THEY EAT
AND WHERE THEIR FAMILIES ARE
THEY HAD THE CHOICE
THEY COULD HAVE LEARNED MY LESSONS THROUGH MY WORDS
AND A SMILE
BUT THEY CHOSE NOT TO
AND NOW, THE ONLY OTHER METHOD I HAVE WILL TAKE THEM
TO THE VERY END OF THEMSELVES
THE "EQUIPMENT" WHICH I PROVIDED AT FIRST WOULD
HAVE BEEN SO EASY TO USE
A DAILY REGIMEN OF SIMPLY LISTENING AND OBEYING
LITTLE PAIN - MUCH RESULTS
BUT INSTEAD THEIR PRIDE SAID THAT THEY DID NOT NEED IT
BUT I SAY THAT THEY STILL DO
AND I AM BOSS
SO THE "EQUIPMENT" IS SET UP
AND WE WILL SEE WHO SURVIVES

REMEMBER, LITTLE ONE
YOU HAVE BEEN REMOVED
YOU CANNOT HELP THEM YET
NOT UNTIL THEIR HEART CHANGES COMPLETELY
OR WE HAVE ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING

IT IS AS IF A PARENT CALLS HIS CHILD TO COME DOWN TO DINNER
BUT THE CHILD HESITATES
THE PARENT CALLS AND CALLS FOR THE PARENT
KNOWS THAT THE CHILD
NEEDS NOURISHMENT TO GROW PROPERLY
STILL THE CHILD DOES NOT LISTEN OR COME
LIGHTNING STRIKES THE HOUSE AND THUNDER FOLLOWS
CONSUMING THE ROOM THAT THE CHILD IS IN
QUICKLY THE CHILD RUNS TO THE PARENT
BUT HAS THE CHILD TRULY CHANGED?
IF THE SCENARIO IS REPEATED TOMORROW WOULD
THE CHILD COME AT
THE FIRST CALLING TO EAT OF ITS DINNER
OR DELAY AS BEFORE?

IT WOULD SURELY DELAY
THE CHILD MUST LEARN TO COME TO THE PARENT THE FIRST TIME THAT
THE PARENT CALLS WITHOUT LIGHTNING AND THUNDER
WHAT WILL IT TAKE?
YOU NEED NOT KNOW
ONLY I NEED TO KNOW THE DETAILS
BUT I ASSURE YOU, THOSE WHO ARE TRULY MINE
WILL LEARN TO COME WHEN I CALL
AND THEY WILL LEARN TO EAT WHEN I TELL THEM TO EAT
AND THEY WILL LEARN TO LIVE IN A WAY THAT HONORS ME
AND YOU, MY SERVANT
I ASSURE YOU

COME HAVE SOME FUN WITH ME, SERVANT OF THE MOST HIGH GOD

I'm here for You!!!

*****
Day 5

Hey God, the Anointing upon me this day is oh so strong
What's up?

IT'S A TWO-DAY FILLING FOR A JOB WHICH YOU MUST DO SOON
FROM INSIDE THE "BOMB SHELTER"
NO BIG DEAL
I'M JUST GETTING YOU READY

Today I was playing some old worship songs which I used to sing to You
with such passion and something was missing when I sang them

IT IS AS I EXPLAINED TO YOU THE OTHER DAY
I HAVE ALREADY BEEN WOOED
I AM RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE
IF I BECOME MORE THAN ONE ARM'S LENGTH AWAY
YOU WOULD BEGIN TO WOO AGAIN
BUT THE BRIDEGROOM IS HERE - RIGHT HERE WITH YOU
AND SO YOU SING LOVE SONGS OF OUR LOVE TOGETHER
NOT SONGS OF SEEKING ME

Oh, but I don't ever want You to think that I wouldn't do
everything necessary to win You back
You are really all that there is that is worth living for
I am more convinced of that after the accident
You saved my life and if You can save it then You can fully fill it
and remove anything that compromises
I'm already known as one that will not compromise
but I have, within my own thoughts, hoped that the religious
would turn back to You
and I have contemplated giving in to them a little to make them turn
but now I know that I must stand strong in perfect strength from You
and if they cannot live with the Truth that You have placed within me
then we will have no further business together
I see one verse on a very lengthy newsletter and go "nuts"
It appears to be outrageous behavior
for doesn't this world live each day through compromising?
but I can't
To compromise the Truth is to completely deny You
and I won't
I can't
NO WAY

I hurt for some of the relationships which I had which can never be again
if the people do not divorce themselves from religion
I hurt because these people are still part of me
part of my soul

THE ONES THAT ARE A PART OF YOUR SOUL WILL RETURN TO YOU
BUT IF YOU DID NOT MAKE THE STANCE FOR TRUTH
THEY WOULD NOT HAVE SURVIVED MY PUNISHMENT
I WILL NOT RECEIVE BASTARDS INTO MY KINGDOM

IF ONLY ONE STANDS
THAT ONE CAN SAVE MILLIONS FROM HELL
STAND, TERAH, STAND
FOR EACH DAY THAT YOU STAND MORE COME INTO MY KINGDOM
AND ARE SEALED INTO TRUTH
YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG
BUT SOMETHING SO VERY RIGHT THAT THIS WORLD
DOES NOT OFTEN WITNESS
I HAVE USED YOU AND WILL CONTINUE TO USE YOU
TO SET PEOPLE
FREE
FROM RELIGION
I AM NOT RELIGION BUT THE LIVING, BREATHING,
SPEAKING, LOVING GOD
AND YOUR JOB IS TO BRING PEOPLE INTO MY PRESENCE
JUST BY SPEAKING AND WRITING
AND NOW BY SIMPLY WALKING THIS EARTH
FOR I WILL SHINE THROUGH YOU AS I HAVE NOT DONE
THROUGH ANOTHER
OF THIS HUMAN-TURF IN YEARS
DO NOT BE SURPRISED AT PEOPLE'S REACTIONS FOR A LIGHT
WILL SURELY SHINE UPON YOU
AND PEOPLE OF THE SPIRIT WILL KNOW YOU
BECAUSE THEY KNOW ME

EXCITING DAYS AHEAD!
NO MORE HIDING SOON
YES, KEEP DRINKING IN THE ANOINTING FOR IT WILL SURELY
OVERWHELM YOU THIS DAY
AND REMEMBER - ALL THOSE WHO ARE PART OF YOUR HEART
WILL RETURN TO YOU SOMEDAY AND YOU WILL BE FAMILY
YOU HAVE NOT TRULY LOST ANYONE THAT YOU LOVE

Thanks, God
I needed to hear that so badly today
I feel like my stance has sent people away
but I believe what You have said and I will count these people
as still family
I long to be part of a large, loving family
I long to be loved and to love freely without judgment in the midst
I long for Your Kingdom on earth
Make it happen
and begin with me

AND THAT IS WHAT I HAVE DONE

Shalom, Friend
The "wine" is quite good this day

KEEP DRINKING
WORK TO DO SOON

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Day 7

The revelation begins
with a simple vision of a door to hell itself opening
From the opening came 700,000 white hooded demons
Their faces were elusive, but darkened and their eyes were red
It appears to be a new release of demonic activity across this earth

Next - God told me to read from a book, “The Feasts of the Lord”
He told me the page number and I began to read of when Jesus
sat at the Table that very last time
2 cups had already been drunk and then Jesus revealed who
the betrayer was
Judas left the Table to fulfill his mission
Judas was not there for the third and fourth cups or for the dinner, itself
 
IT IS TIME TO REVEAL THE BETRAYERS OF MY GOSPEL
JUST AS I EXPOSED JUDAS TO MY DISCIPLES
I WILL EXPOSE AND COMPLETELY REVEAL THOSE WHO SAY
THEY ARE OF ME - BUT BETRAY ME
I RELEASE THE DEMONS FROM HELL THIS DAY TO DECEIVE
FURTHER THOSE WHO PROCLAIM TO BE OF ME, BUT ARE NOT
THEY ARE SURELY HARLOTS, BASTARDS, PEOPLE OF ANOTHER GOD
AND I WILL ALLOW THE DEMONS TO LEAD THEM ASTRAY
SO THAT I MAY HAVE DINNER AND COMMUNION WITH
ONLY THOSE WHO ARE MINE
ONLY THOSE WHO REMAIN

IT IS A SIMPLE VISION TO RECORD
BUT OH THE HAVOC THESE DEMONS WILL CAUSE ACROSS THIS EARTH
CONFUSION, THE HARLOT CHURCH WILL BE IN
FOR I WILL BE SILENT AND THEY WILL HEAR ONLY WORDS
FROM THOSE WHO APPEAR TO BE OF ME FOR THEY WEAR WHITE
BUT THEY ARE SENT TO DECEIVE
TO FURTHER REMOVE THOSE WHO DO NOT KNOW ME
OR KNOW MY VOICE

WHEN I OFFER COMMUNION AND DINNER
IT WILL ONLY BE FOR THOSE WHO ARE TRULY MINE
DEMONS, DO YOUR COMPLETE JOB
EVEN THOUGH YOUR DIRECT LORD IS SATAN, HIMSELF
I RULE OVER ALL

SERVANT, THIS IS A TIME OF REVELATION TO ALL
OF WHO BELONG TO ME AND WHO IS OF SATAN
THOSE OF SATAN WILL HAVE NO DIRECTION OR DIRECTION
THAT IS CONTRARY TO MY WAYS
JUST AS YOU KNOW SO MANY WHO CALL THEMSELVES
BY MY NAME BUT HAVE FAILED TO OBEY ME WHEN I HAVE SPOKEN
THEY WILL BE LOST WITHOUT A PRAYER
UNLESS THEY RETURN NOW AND LEARN TO WALK IN OBEDIENCE
THE TIME IS SO SHORT


Within hours after God's word of the deployment
of the deception spirits across this earth
a young man comes to my office with a "great idea"
which he has just thought of this day
The only problem is that it was contrary to all that God has told him before
Still it seemed to be the logical thing to do
We talked for hours and finally came to the conclusion
that the reason that he wants
to "leave the Table" is because he is not getting all that he wants
He thought, for sure, that God would have answered all his prayers by now
but God has held off because the young man was pursuing the blessings
instead of God
Thinking that God was slow, he began to pursue that
for which he asked God for
but in every way - God kept this gift from him so that he would find God first
and be worthy of the gift
Through the conversation it became so apparent
that the only reason that he was
following God was to get what he wanted
I cannot talk this young man into loving God
I cannot change his views or his selfish desires
but I also know that if he does not change
that he will soon walk from the "Table" forever
As the words came to me, I spoke them to the young man,
"Ask God to help you Love Him as He wants you to love Him"
each day
Thinking this was too simple
he argued more for when would he get what he wanted from God?
Yes, when?
And when will God get what He deserves from us?
When?
I will be praying for this young man, too
but his lifestyle dictates his desire for God
and he attends a church with other people who are just as lukewarm
and demanding of God
I think it's sad
I pray that all of God's people would rise up to Love God
as He deserves to be loved
as He desires to be loved

On the issue of love, I began to think back
on the apostles which I have recently
left the company of
and I asked God what my problem was that I can't seem
to "get with" anyone's program
and He showed me a vision which illustrates the happenings in the Spirit
I saw the apostles lined up, bent over washing the feet of the world
They were busy and did not fight for position among themselves
In the vision, I rested on Jesus' chest and listened to His every word
Once in a great while He would speak a word to them - a command
for what they were to do
but mostly they worked hard and worked amongst themselves
without His intervention
God asked me where I would rather be with Him or with them
I just smiled, because He already knew
He spoke to me these words,

IF ONLY THEY HAD KNOWN
YOUR TRUE PURPOSE AMONGST THEM
YOU WERE MY HEARTBEAT
YOU WERE MY WORDS
YOU WERE NOT THEIR COMPETITION
YOU WERE NOT THERE TO LEAD THEM INTO THEIR RESPONSIBILITIES
BUT YOU WERE THERE TO LEAD THEM TO KNOW MY CONSTANT WILL
FOR YOU SEE I RARELY SPEAK TO THEM
THEY STRUGGLE AND STRUGGLE TO KNOW MY WILL
BUT NOW, WITH THEIR ARROGANCE THEY WILL HAVE TO
HEAR ON THEIR OWN
AND THEY WILL STILL DO THEIR WORK
BUT IT WILL BE HARDER AND MORE TIME CONSUMING
THE POWER WILL NOT COME WHEN IT IS SUPPOSE TO
BECAUSE THEY WOULD NOT HUMBLE THEMSELVES BEFORE A WOMAN
A “CURSED” WOMAN
BECAUSE DOESN'T THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW WHAT EVE DID?
HOW EASILY SHE WAS DECEIVED
BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER IT TOOK SATAN,
HIMSELF TO DECEIVE THE WOMAN
WHEREAS THE MAN WAS DECEIVED BY ONLY A WOMAN
WHAT DOES THAT SAY?
IS THE CURSE STILL IN EFFECT THIS DAY?
WAS THE CROSS A JOKE?
WAS IT OF NO EFFECT?
WAS IT SIMPLY A SIGN THAT MAN CAN SPOUT
RELIGIOUS WORDS TO CONTROL THE PEOPLE?
IF ANYTHING
THE CROSS
MEANS FREEDOM
FREEDOM FROM ALL THE CURSES
FREEDOM FROM THE CURSE OF BEING A WOMAN OR A MAN
FREEDOM
WHEN WILL THE WORLD UNDERSTAND?
WHEN WILL MY CHURCH UNDERSTAND?

Years ago when I first contacted the apostles God gave me a vision
I was on an elevator with all men
They pushed the 8th floor button and when we arrived - they all walked out
I began to follow them, but God told me to remain where I was
He took me to a higher floor and as the elevator door opened
the first thing I saw was Jesus greeting me
"Welcome home" He said and He embraced me
He showed me the view from the window and we talked and supped
Every once in awhile - He would speak through a microphone
which went to the 8th floor
The apostles heard His Voice over the intercom
but His Presence was not known
Only instructions were given and I was silent

I guess our elevator ride together is over
and I only regret that the apostles didn't take the time to know my heart
and my desire to please God, not to be raised up amongst them
For what would that profit me to be known among them?
I say, "goodbye" for I prefer the place at His side
to the competition and rules which govern the apostles
Will God still use them?
Most certainly
after He washes them clean
and teaches them what true "love" and "freedom"
in the Kingdom mean

God, do You ever feel like it would be better to start all over?

I DID THAT ONCE AND PROMISED TO NEVER DO IT AGAIN
BUT IT DOESN'T STOP ME FROM WANTING TO

RISE UP, YOUNG ONE
RISE UP AND ANOINT THE NON-CHURCH-GOERS
THAT I SEND YOU TO
YOU HAVE MAINLY WORKED WITH THOSE WHO HAVE
HAD THEIR FILL OF RELIGION AND THE CHAINS ABOUT THEM
ARE MANY
IT'S APATHY THAT KILLS THEIR SPIRIT MORE THAN THE DEMONS OF EVIL
THEY JUST DON'T CARE
DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN I SHOWED YOU
A VISION OF YOUR ACCIDENT
AND I SHOWED YOU IN TURN THE PEOPLE THAT YOU HAVE KNOWN
AS THEY WOULD PASS BY THE SCENE
THERE WERE ONLY A VERY FEW WHO WOULD STOP TO HELP
ONCE THEY KNEW THAT IT WAS YOU
I KNOW THAT THIS REALIZATION HURT YOU
BUT WHAT HURTS ME MORE IS TO KNOW THAT THERE IS NOT LOVE
IN MY CHURCHES AND AMONGST THOSE WHO
CALL THEMSELVES BY MY NAME
7 DAYS OF SHEER SILENCE I WILL GIVE THIS WORLD
AS I WORK IN THE LIVES TO REMOVE THOSE WHO CALL THEMSELVES
"CHRISTIAN" BUT WILL NEVER ASK FOR MY LOVE
IT IS SIMPLE, SERVANT
COME AWAY
I HAVE A LESSON - A VERY HARD LESSON TO TEACH THE CHURCH
WHAT IS LOVE?
LOVE IS LAYING DOWN YOUR LIFE FOR ANOTHER
ANYONE
I LAID MY LIFE DOWN
AND I CALL MY PEOPLE TO LAY DOWN THEIR LIVES FOR ALL
ONLY THOSE WHO REVEAL MY CHARACTER WITHIN THEM
WILL BE CALLED MY PEOPLE IN THE FUTURE
ONLY THOSE

NO, DAUGHTER - NO MORE ELEVATOR RIDES FOR YOU WITH PEOPLE
THAT PAY YOU NO HEED OR ACKNOWLEDGE
YOUR GIFTS AND YOUR LOVE
BEFORE ME
LET THEM STAND ALONE IN THEIR EMPTY ROOM
AND TRY TO FIND ME
FOR TO THEM, IT IS A JOB
TO YOU, IT WAS A TREASURE-HUNT

AND I LOVE YOU SO
STAY WITH ME THROUGH THE "NIGHT" OF THE CHURCH
FEW WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS NIGHT SO DARK
BUT ALL YOU CAN DO IS STAY BY MY SIDE
AND COMFORT ME
AND KNOW THAT WHEN THE 21 DAYS ARE OVER
WE WILL TRULY BEGIN ALL OVER AGAIN
NO, NOT AS IN NOAH'S DAYS
BUT YOU WILL SEE AND REJOICE
THAT THOSE WHO DO NOT TRULY LOVE ME WILL BE SWEPT AWAY
BY THE DESIRES OF THEIR HEART
AND WE WILL START ANEW
HALLELUJAH
FOR I WILL BRING FORTH MY KINGDOM ON EARTH
AND IT WILL BE
A KINGDOM
OF FREEDOM AND OF LOVE


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