DAYS OF GLORY

God, I hate to tell You, but I don't want to write this page
I know what the Anointing to write feels like and it is definitely here
but there is a time for silence and "hiding out"
that I feel is essential to my Calling

GOOD TRY
WRITE

As I closed off the previous page,
God informed me that I would go through 14 days
of His Glory to prepare me for my next mission
The days have progressed as He spoke that they would
but the Power has been more than I thought I could hold
but I survived
This is only day #4,
but each day verses have held the theme for the day
and the Anointing received

Day 1 - Psalm 68
In vision form I received my own "cloud"
God, they are never going to believe this stuff

WRITE

Ok - Anyway once I was placed on this cloud
I was "hot-wired"
and could not sleep for 24 hours
I kept doing flips and yelling at the saints on the other clouds, "I love you"
At one point, I heard someone ask, "When is she going to go to sleep?"
Well . . . I didn't that night, but Power I did receive

Day 2 - Isaiah 61
This is nothing new because I received it almost 6 years ago
It is just being increased and magnified

Day 3 - Jeremiah 33: 1 - 16
A confirmation that the "City of the Lord" will be built
and in the Spirit it will be called,
"THE LORD OUR RIGHTEOUSNESS"

Day 4 - Isaiah 24: 1
I will continue to prophesy of God's judgment upon the earth

Tonight will be another strong Anointing, but I have yet to receive it
I think this page is really boring
and I truly hope that no one has followed me this far

TELL ABOUT TODAY'S HAPPENINGS

Ok - God has me training again in bicycling
He had me do this 2 years ago and once I finished the course
He provided
50 days of 26 miles through the hills in the city
He bought me a tremendous new bike
I hung it in the garage as a trophy and bought a motorcycle
God, I miss my motorcycle on those hills
Anyway, the riding symbolizes the church ridding itself
of the antichrists and harlots
Go figure that one because I don't want to go into detail
My assignment today was a hill at the Coast and all went well
except that my chain keeps getting stuck because
I refuse to ride my "trophy" bike
I ride my old bike, instead
I feel like I need to earn it again
at least be at the same level I was 2 years ago
before I ride it
God provided a great rest at the beach afterwards
A youth group was just assembling in the area where I was seated
and God said that I could stay and listen to them worship
I thought I was in for a treat
but it was boring - so boring
The kids did just as the youth leaders told them
and they worshipped, but it wasn't from their heart
They did it because they were told to
At that point, God began to speak to me of how
He wants His church run
that it will be completely spontaneous
and those who are led to worship
will come and worship
Those who are led to pray or be prayed for will do that
It will be completely Spirit-led
The kids actually looked like drones sitting upon the sand
like all the life had been sucked out of them
so that they could be obedient "sitters"
God made me turn my back to them and I knew
that He is turning His back
on those who will not seek Him
for His will to be done in the services

God, this is not working
what is the purpose of this page?
You, alone, know my heart and how "dead" it is to the church
and anything that the church produces
Why also this "dead" page?

AND WHAT DO I PRODUCE?

Life

EXACTLY
I WILL BRING LIFE TO THIS PAGE
SO FAR YOU ARE SIMPLY REPORTING HAPPENINGS
BUT YOUR SPIRIT IS GONE
YOUR SPIRIT IS STILL UPON THE CLOUD OF ANOINTING
AND YOU HAVE NO DESIRE TO BE WRITING OR COMMUNICATING
IN ANY FORM WITH OTHERS

No kidding
I just want to "hang out" on the cloud
After 6 years of struggling with the "church" in various forms
I want to be only where You are
and You don't "hang out" at churches

HOW IS THE FLOWER BED DOING?

I don't want to water the flowers anymore
If 6 years of laying down my life did nothing
What will more water or "words" accomplish?
I know that Your will - will be done
but I don't want to be around to see it

WHY?

I'm tired
I'm tired of being bored by the church
I'm tired of praying for their stubborn hearts
without seeing one sign in the natural of progress
I'm tired of always being the one who believes
and they do nothing

WHAT DID YOU SEE AT THE DUCK POND YESTERDAY?

A bunch of ducks out-of-order
They were just swimming around like they were lost

WHY DID I SHOW YOU THAT?

Because I had just spent 30 minutes
telling someone that the church they attend
is completely out-of-order from the top down
The pastor will not obey You and go where he is suppose to go
and so all the rest of the people are following in rebellion
and not listening to Your Spirit
The pastor actually has a curse on him
from a foreign land and he will not obey
until that curse is broken
but guess what, God?
I am the "fool" for Christianity
and my words to anyone, practically, have no meaning
until they happen and then it is too late for the people to repent
I'm tired of trying to convince people that I speak Your words
In fact, I don't care any longer
I'm sorry about my attitude, but You asked me to write
and You knew the totality of what I would write

AND, YOU ARE NOT WRONG, CHILD
FOR THIS IS MY ATTITUDE
AND THE PEOPLE WHO FAIL TO LISTEN WILL SIMPLY
MISS THEIR BLESSING OR PERHAPS
EXPERIENCE THE FULNESS OF THE CURSES
I CAN RAISE YOU UP AS I HAVE WORLD-WIDE
BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT THE PEOPLE WILL LISTEN

You know that I really do care, but I wish that I didn't
I cannot grab hold of these people and speak Truth
for they already hear a voice and it is not Yours
so of course, they would simply label my words as being evil
because it is not good news

AND THAT IS THE TRUTH, YOUNG ONE
BUT TELL ME THIS DAY
WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT TO DO?

I'm not sure, but I know that today the grief upon me was so heavy
for all I could remember spoken over and over to me were words
long ago that informed me that I was not worthy or in position to speak
Your words to the people that You told me to

DO YOU WANT ME TO RAISE YOU UP IN THEIR EYES SO THAT THEY
WOULD BELIEVE YOU NOW?

No, not really, for doesn't that negate the whole process
of using someone like me
so that they would have to inquire of You
instead of listening because I have a viable reputation?
Let only those who choose to know the Truth - hear Your words
I think to cater to their minds at this point would bring forth a people
like those who already fill the churches
That's not Your Way

YOU'RE RIGHT

Being right, my Friend, does not take the grief away

NO, IT DOESN'T
BUT KNOW THAT ALL IS IN ORDER
AND EVEN THOUGH THE PEOPLE DO NOT RESPOND
ALL IS IN ORDER

Can I go back to my "cloud" now?

WITH MY BLESSING
THE ANOINTING WHICH YOU WILL RECEIVE TONIGHT
IS SURELY A SURPRISE AND ONE FOR WHICH YOU WILL NEED
DESPERATELY IN 10 DAYS TIME
TAKE IT ALL IN
FOR I AM WITH YOU AND I AM FILLING YOU TO OVERFLOWING
WITH ALL THAT YOU NEED

I hope I haven't displeased You today
with my response to the grief You put on my spirit
I know that You are grieving, too
and sometimes I simply dwell on the memories
and forget to comfort You

BUT DON'T YOU KNOW THAT IN THE SHARING
OF MY GRIEF WITH YOU IS THE COMFORT I DESIRE?

God, I have a riddle
What can you buy with a nickel?

YOU TRIED TO BUY AN EXTRA RENEWAL SERVICE
FROM A VERY TIRED PASTOR ONCE WITH A NICKEL

Yeah, but I guess it cost more than a nickel
Can I share my "nickel" vision?

DO IT
FOR THERE IS AN IMPORTANT LESSON IN IT FOR ALL

In the vision, I walked up to Your Throne and handed You a nickel
You placed it in a gum ball machine and one gum ball rolled out
You offered me half, but I said that it was all Yours
You still cut it in half and handed it to me
We both chewed our half gum balls
and challenged each other with blowing bubbles
You spoke to me that the gum ball represents the fame that is coming
It is worth about a nickel in hard cold cash
Even though I don't want any part of it because it is totally Yours
You will share it with me
We will both be amused by it,
but not take any of it seriously

THAT'S RIGHT
THE FAME IS COMING ANEW
ONCE THE WORLD CAN FIND YOU
I HAVE HIDDEN YOU WELL
VERY WELL
BUT ONE DAY SOON
I WILL RELEASE YOU
AND YOU MUST BE READY TO ANSWER QUESTIONS
AND FIELD THE BALLS THROWN YOUR WAY
IT WILL BE AS EASY AS BLOWING BUBBLES
IT WILL BE WORTH VERY LITTLE TO YOU AND I
BUT LET THE WORLD DO "IT'S THING"
IT WILL ONLY EXPOSE MORE PEOPLE TO MY WORDS

I got another nickel, God
what can we buy?

GO TO YOUR CLOUD AND I WILL TELL YOU

You're still my FAVORITE
even though You made me write this page
I know a cool song to sing to You from my cloud,

"I'm gonna love YOU
Like nobody's loved YOU
Come rain or come shine
High as a mountain and deep as a river
Come rain or come shine . . ." 

Thanks for the cloud - it is radical!!!

"I'M WITH YOU ALWAYS
RAIN OR SHINE
YOU'RE GONNA LOVE ME LIKE NOBODY'S LOVED ME
COME RAIN OR COME SHINE
HAPPY TOGETHER . . . WON'T THAT BE FINE
THE DAY MAY BE CLOUDY OR SUNNY
WE'RE IN OR OUT OF THE MONEY
I'M WITH YOU ALWAYS
I'M WITH YOU RAIN OR SHINE"
(Come Rain Or Come Shine - B.B. King & Eric Clapton)


3 days later . . .
God, I hate to complain
but the happenings of the last few days is not what I would
categorize as "GLORY"

AND WHAT DID YOU EXPECT
MORE "CLOUD" LIFE?

Yes, that would have been more peaceful
and I believe, more productive
I feel lost
I feel like I have done something wrong for which I was punished
I know You so well and still I don't understand
the "move" upon me of the last few days
Is my heart wrong?

A BIKE RIDE I SENT YOU ON
BUT YOU RODE WHAT YOU KNEW
YOU RODE THE OLD BIKE
BECAUSE YOU FELT, AS THOUGH,
YOU NEEDED TO EARN THE NEW ONE AGAIN
THAT, IN ITSELF, WAS NOT WRONG
BUT FRIEND, WHAT YOU HAVE ATTAINED IN MY KINGDOM
YOU MUST WALK IN AND NOT GO BACKWARDS
YOU HAVE LOST A FEW DAYS TIME
TIME IN AGONY
TIME OF NOT KNOWING IF YOU WOULD RECOVER
TIME OF PAIN AND STILL MORE TIME TO COME
OF BEING OUT-OF-COMMISSION
UNTIL YOU HEAL
BECAUSE THAT FOR WHICH YOU WORKED TO EARN
WAS ALREADY EARNED
AND READY TO TAKE YOU SAFELY TO THE OTHER SIDE

Is this part of the Glory?

MOST CERTAINLY
YOUR BONES WILL HEAL
YOUR MEMORY WILL RETURN
BUT YOU WILL BEGIN WHERE I TELL YOU TO BEGIN
AND NOT WHERE YOU FEEL ADEQUATE TO FUNCTION

Is there any way that I could have learned this without so much pain?

NO, FOR IT IS A LESSON IN MY POWER
AND I WILL ALLOW YOU TO BE ATTACKED AND SIDELINED
IF YOU DO NOT USE ALL AT YOUR DISPOSAL IN THE COMING DAYS

IT COULD HAVE BEEN MUCH WORSE
MY HAND WAS UPON YOU EVEN THOUGH
YOU HAVE SUFFERED MUCH DAMAGE
BUT I WILL HEAL YOU QUICKLY

Why don't I remember the accident at all?

FOR IT IS NOT YOURS TO RECALL
IT IS MINE
AND IT WAS ALLOWED BY MY HAND
TO BRING YOU TO WHERE YOU NEED TO BE
IN THIS TIME AND SPACE

A nice little invitation would have been more appropriate

BUT WOULD YOU HAVE COME?
I HAVE BROKEN YOU TO DELIVER YOU WHOLLY
TO YOUR PLACE OF REIGNING
YOU WOULD NEVER THINK THAT YOU WERE WORTHY
BUT I PRESENT IT TO YOU THIS NIGHT

I might as well rule and reign
I can barely move
but as always, You are the Boss and I trust Your judgment
and if it took this act to bring me into the fullness of what You have me to do
then it’s just part of the passage

So, what can I buy with a nickel on my cloud?

PEACE OF MIND THAT YOU DID NOTHING WRONG
PEACE OF HEART TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU TRULY
AND WOULD NEVER HURT YOU
UNLESS IT WAS COMPLETELY NECESSARY
PEACE IN BODY FOR I WILL HEAL QUICKLY WHAT I HAVE BROKEN
PEACE IN TIME FOR THIS TIME WILL BE WELL-SPENT
KNOWING MY LOVE UPON YOU
AND THAT YOUR WORLD-SERVICE IS JUST BEGINNING
JUST AS YOUR NEW BIKE SYMBOLIZES

PUT THE OLD ONE AWAY
IT WAS FOR DAYS PAST
WHEN YOU WERE IN TRAINING
BUT THE TIME TO REIGN IS NOW, MY FRIEND
MY WOUNDED FRIEND

COME AND RIDE WITH ME TONIGHT IN THE SPIRIT
I DO HAVE A SURPRISE FOR YOU WHICH YOU WILL GREATLY ENJOY
I DO LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH MY METHODS SEEM HARSH AT TIMES
IT'S ONLY BECAUSE WE HAVE SO LITTLE TIME LEFT
AND SO MUCH TO ACCOMPLISH

SLEEP WELL, LITTLE ONE
I WILL COMFORT THE BROKEN PLACES AND
PLACE MY KISS UPON YOU
FOR YOU MUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO
EVEN THOUGH THE TRAINING IS MIXED WITH HARDSHIP
COME CLOSE TO ME AND DON'T FEAR ME
FOR I WILL HOLD YOU THIS NIGHT
AND SPEAK TO YOU OVER AND OVER
"WELL DONE - YOUR WORK HAS ONLY JUST BEGUN"

LOVE,

DAD


Hours later . . .

As I lay awake waiting for the "drugs" to kick-in
all I could think about is LOVE
I have been so wrong and so ignorant
For instance, yesterday ended the 95th brick laid
at a place where more than 90%
of the people hate me
And if they do not hate me, why haven't they contacted me?
It's all a game - it's a sham
and I have played along like I thought they would change
Well . . . they won't

There are people in this world that are filled with God's Love
and they love all people
They do not judge as the church judges
If they saw someone lying by the side of the street hurt
they would come and help
I erroneously believed that some people
within the modern-day churches
were part of this group
Certainly not where I laid the bricks
They "love" who they can control and that is all
This accident has been a "wake-up" call for me
in that, I have spent so much time and energy trying to earn their love
when if they were truly of God, I wouldn't have to earn it
It would be freely given without question

I'm ready to move on, God
I don't want to work with those who don't have
Your Love within their hearts
I also don't have time to wait for them
to find out how to get Your Love
I think they have had long enough
May I walk away clearly now?
After all the 95th brick would have been laid yesterday
and there is no response

AS YOU LAY IN THE DITCH AND THE PEOPLE PASS BY
WHAT DO THEY SAY?
"IT'S A PITY THAT SHE COULDN'T HAVE DONE THINGS OUR WAY.
WE WOULD HAVE SURELY MADE A PLACE FOR HER
AND FOR HER FAMILY BUT SHE REMAINED REBELLIOUS
AND INTENT ON HER OWN WAY."
AND SO YOU SEE AS YOU WALK PAST THE CHURCH
AND ALL RELIGIOUS
THEY ARE WAITING FOR US TO PLAY THE GAME THEIR WAY
WHICH WE CAN'T
WE CANNOT COMPROMISE
WE CANNOT JUST PRETEND TO LOVE
AS THEY WALK THEMSELVES
TO HELL
WE CANNOT BE A PART OF THEM ANY LONGER
WALK AWAY, CHILD, AND KNOW THAT YOU TRIED
BUT I WILL SURELY BURN THE PLACE DOWN ONE DAY
FOR THERE IS NOTHING OF WORTH THERE
NOTHING
AND WHAT OF THE PEOPLE?
THEY FOLLOW THEIR "LEADERSHIP-GOD" AND TO THEM IS DUE
THE PUNISHMENT OF ONE WHO ASKS THEM TO FOLLOW HIM
TO THEM IS DUE THE ERROR OF HIS WAYS
TO THEM IS DUE ALL THAT EVIL BRINGS

BUT I SAY TO YOU
WALK AWAY
RUN AWAY
CREATE A HIGHWAY TO LEAVE THE CHURCHES OF THIS DAY
YOU ARE JUST THE ONE TO DO IT

DO YOU LOOK BACK AS YOU RUN?
DO YOU RUN WITH EASE OR ARE YOU HINDERED IN ANY WAY?
I WILL RUN WITH YOU BEFORE THE EXPLOSION OCCURS
YOU HAVE DONE ALL THAT I HAVE ASKED
YOU HAVE SHOWN THEM MY LOVE
BUT THAT IS NOT WHAT THEY WANT
THEY WANT PRESTIGE AND NUMBERS
AND CURRICULUM BRIGHT AND PRETTY
THEY DO NOT WANT THE LIVING GOD
FOR I AM TOO BOSSY AND OPINIONATED
I WILL SURELY BURN THE PLACE DOWN IN THE SPIRIT

YES, YOU WAIT BY THE SIDE OF THE ROAD
WITH WOUNDS AND INJURIES BUT NO ONE WILL STOP
IS IT ANY DIFFERENT FROM WHEN THE ASSOCIATE PASTOR
LEFT YOU LYING IN THE BACK LOT?

NOT IN MY EYES
TAKE LEAVE AND DO NOT EVER ASK OF THEIR CONDITION
TAKE LEAVE AND LEAVE BEHIND THOSE WHO SPOUT MY WORDS
BUT HAVE NO LOVE TO SHARE WITH THIS WORLD
TAKE LEAVE AND MAY THE BRICKS BE PLACED
WHERE THE SUN NEVER SHINES
FOR THAT IS WHERE THE PEOPLE OF THAT CHURCH
ARE DUE
WHERE THE "SON" NEVER SHINES
FOR THEIR HATRED AND INDIFFERENCE
FOR THEIR FALSE PIETY AND THEIR GRANTS OF FAVOR
TO PEOPLE WITH MONEY

YOU TYPE AND YOUR ARM IS BROKEN
YOU LOOK AT THE PAGE AND YOUR EYE IS BLACKENED
YOU TRY TO STRAIGHTEN UP BUT YOUR WOUNDS ARE MANY
FOR THIS IS WHAT I WILL DO TO THESE CHURCHES
WHO KNOW NOT MY LOVE
I SENT MY INNOCENT ONE INTO THEIR MIDST TO TEST THEIR LOVE
BUT HATRED WAS ALL YOU RECEIVED
TODAY AND TOMORROW
ONLY HATRED

TIME IS UP
I WILL JUDGE HARSHLY
AND NOT ONE WILL YOU ENTERTAIN WITH GRACE
UNTIL THEIR FULL PUNISHMENT IS MET
AND NOT JUST THIS ONE CHURCH WHERE THE BRICKS WERE LAID
AND THEN REMOVED BY REBELLIOUS HANDS
BUT ALL CHURCHES ACROSS THIS WORLD
WILL NOW SEE MY HAND OF JUDGMENT
PASS ACROSS THEIR BACKSIDE
FOR YOU SEE
YOU KNOW WITHOUT QUESTION
THAT THEY DO NOT LOVE

AND JUST AS I WILL REPLACE YOUR BIKE
WHICH CAUSED YOUR FALL
I WILL REPLACE THE CHURCHES WHICH CAUSE
THE MANY PEOPLE
TO FALL

THIS IS FINAL, YOUNG ONE
WATCH THE PEOPLE PASS AWAY UNTO THEIR GRAVES
FOR SURELY THEY DID NOT MIND SEEING YOU GO TO YOURS
OR ME TO MINE
THIS IS A TIME OF JUSTICE AND LIFE AND LOVE
AND I WILL CONQUER THE MODERN-DAY CHURCH
AND I WILL REBUILD WITH A NEW GENERATION

EVEN AS YOUR WOUNDS BLEED THIS NIGHT
KNOW THAT THE CHURCH WILL BE ONE OPENED WOUND
FOR THE WORLD TO OPEN AND REOPEN
YOU SIMPLY SHIFT AND YOUR WOUND OPENS
AND THAT IS HOW IT WILL BE FOR THE CHURCH WHO KNOWS
NOT MY LOVE

ALL I ASKED THEM TO DO WAS LOVE
AND THEY BUILT GREAT BUILDINGS
AND BROUGHT IN FANCY PREACHERS
AND ADDED OAK SEATS AND HIDDEN ARCS OF RIGHTEOUSNESS
BUT TO ME IT IS ALL MEANINGLESS
ALL I ASKED THEM TO DO WAS TO LOVE

ALL THEY HAD TO DO WAS BE FILLED WITH ME
SO THAT THEY COULD FULFILL THAT MISSION
BUT INSTEAD, THEY CHOSE TO IMPRESS THE PEOPLE
OF POSITION AND MONEY
WELL - IMPRESS THEM TO DEATH
FOR I AM NOT A PART OF IT
AND I WILL PULL OUT THEIR "ROYAL RUG" THIS DAY

CHILD, THE WOUNDS WILL HEAL
AND WE WILL BEGIN AGAIN WITH RENEGADE CHURCHES
CHURCHES WHO PREFER TO LOVE THAN TO JUDGE
CHURCHES THAT LOOK TO ME INSTEAD OF TO MAN
CHURCHES THAT BRING FORTH MY WILL INSTEAD OF MAN'S
IT WILL BE A GOOD DAY
I PROMISE!

GO REST
LET THE WOUNDS HEAL
AND I WILL SURELY BRING THOSE WHO ARE MINE TO YOU
YOU ARE NOT TO LOOK FOR THEM
THEY WILL COME TO YOU FOR I WILL SEND THEM
THIS CHURCH WILL BE BUILT BY MY SPIRIT, ALONE
AND THERE WILL BE
LOVE

****

Wednesday . . .
Though You slay me, I will still Love You
Just can't get rid of me, huh God?
But I have found Love - real Love through You
and I must have You even if it means following You brings forth my ruin
and that sets up the dreams which You gave me last night:
You showed me people after people that I have known my whole life
and You spoke to me what their main pursuit in life was
To some, over the years, it has been obvious
but others were quite hidden with their agenda

And then as I awoke this morning, I found flowers at my doorstep
There was a huge colorful silk butterfly attached to the top
but next to the flowers was the largest REAL butterfly I have ever seen
It's wing is broken and it just sits on my doorstep waiting for love
Kind of cute . . .
I guess it made a bold move to get closer
to this lovely butterfly attached to the flowers
and the result was a broken wing
Is that what happened to me?

NO, YOU SOUGHT TO KNOW ME IN MY INNERMOST BEING
AND TO DO THAT YOU MUST EXPERIENCE SIMILAR WOUNDS
TO KNOW ME TO MY DEPTH
THE BUTTERFLIES ARE A SYMBOLIC GIFT FOR YOUR FUTURE
FOR AS I PROMISED, I WILL BRING TO YOU THOSE WHO LOVE
SIMPLY LOVE
AND WE WILL START "CHURCH" AS IT WAS MEANT TO BE
IF THE AGENDA IS NOT LOVE
THERE'S NO REASON TO CONTINUE
FOR THAT WILL NOT ATTRACT THE WORLD
OR KEEP THEIR ATTENTION
IT MUST BE LOVE

AND OF THE FRIENDS AND FAMILY WHICH PASSED BY YOUR WAY
IN YOUR DREAMS ONLY A VERY FEW LIVED FOR LOVE
MOST WERE FOR PRESTIGE OR SELFISH GAIN
SO FEW WERE FOR LOVE
I WILL REMOVE FROM YOU THOSE WHO DO NOT OPERATE IN LOVE
AND REPLACE THOSE WITH THE ONES WHO HAVE MY LOVE

ONE LONELY BUTTERFLY SITS UPON YOUR DOORSTEP
IS THAT THE SAME DOORSTEP WHERE YOUR LETTERS
UNRECEIVED WERE PLACED?
IS THAT THE SAME DOORSTEP THAT WAS DELIVERED
UNTO YOU BAD NEWS?
I WILL TURN IT ALL AROUND, YOUNG ONE
WAIT FOR LOVE
IT WILL COME
BUT AS THE BUTTERFLY HAS COME, WOUNDED
MANY WILL COME TO YOU, WOUNDED
BUT IT WILL BE MY CHURCH
THE CHURCH OF MY LOVE
COOL?

So very . . .
Sorry I burst out of my cast last night
but it was driving me crazy
It was too much constraint

AND ISN'T THAT HOW MY CHURCH IS OPERATING?
WITH TOO MUCH CONSTRAINT
THEIR ARMS ARE BOUND AS TIGHTLY AS THEIR HEARTS
THEY CANNOT STRETCH OUT TO GIVE
FOR THEY WILL BECOME UNCOMFORTABLE
IS THERE AN ANSWER?
LOVE

BUT FOR YOU, YOUNG ONE
A NEW CAST WILL BE PUT ON TOMORROW
THERE IS STILL A WORK TO BE DONE
BUT ENJOY TODAY

AND THEN WE WILL NOT WRITE FOR AWHILE
BUT I WILL GIVE YOU A LONG BREAK
WHERE YOU LOVE TO GO

WERE THE WOUNDS WORTH IT
TO BRING YOU TO THIS POINT?

You know that they were
I wish I had this insight so long ago when I tried and tried
to believe that deep down the people were full of love
but they are not
and I know now that all I have to do is wait for the ones You send
I don't have to go out and look for them
I don't have to write them or call them or pray for them
Just wait . . .
as that butterfly waits at my front door

Without love - there's nothing

WITHOUT LOVE - THERE'S NOTHING

Hey, God, how bad do I look?

YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'VE BEEN IN A FIGHT
WITH A VERY WORTHY OPPONENT
BUT NO MORE
FOR I WILL STEP IN AND WIN THIS MATCH
FOR YOUR SAKE AND FOR THE SAKE OF MY CHURCH TO COME
HOW DID THE CHURCH STRAY SO FAR FROM THE ORIGINAL MESSAGE?
HOW DID THE MEN OF POWER STEP IN AND CHANGE ALL THAT HELD VALUE
TO SIMPLY THE PRAISING OF MEN,
TAKING OF MONEY AND ATTEMPTING TO CONTROL ME?
IT STARTED WITH SELFISH HEARTS AND WILLS THAT WERE NOT IN ALIGNMENT WITH ME

Even as I watched TV last night
I paused briefly at TBN and they were talking about
Billy Graham and spoke of his new diagnosis
and then they prayed that he would recover fully
and stand up in full strength
but God,
They didn't even consult You
They have surely taken over
I looked at the man's eyes who was praying
and I knew that You were not Lord of his life
He can pray whatever he chooses to receive praise from people
but what about what You want
Maybe, Billy wants to go "Home"
Maybe it is time
Maybe he would rather be with You and supping in Joy
then lying on a hospital bed
but these people with their 2 foot high hair
think that they know Your will

I DO NOT MEASURE PEOPLE BY THE HEIGHT OF THEIR HAIR

Sorry, I exaggerated

BUT FROM HERE IT LOOKS CLOSE TO AN EXPLOSION
AND WHO ARE THEY THERE TO IMPRESS
SITTING IN THEIR GOLD CHAIRS
AND SHAKING THEIR HEADS OVER THE CONDITION
OF MY FAVORED-SERVANT?
IF ONLY THEY KNEW WHAT IS IN STORE FOR BILLY
THEY WOULD FORGET THEIR OWN SELFISH PRIDE
AND ASK FOR MY PERFECT WILL
WHEN DID I FALL ASLEEP SO THAT EVERYONE
HAS TO COVER FOR ME?
THE SHOW IS BOGUS
AND WELL-SPENT TIME ONLY FOR THOSE
WHO ARE PART OF THEIR
SELFISH CULT
THE CULT THAT CALLS OUT MY NAME BUT DOES NOT LISTEN TO ME
THE CULT THAT PRETENDS THAT THEY KNOW MY WILL
AND YET, THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS THAT THEY DON'T
THEY ONLY FOOL THEMSELVES

BUT FOR YOU, YOUNG SERVANT
IT IS TIME TO BECOME VERY, VERY QUIET
AND WE WILL SUP TOGETHER IN A NEW WAY
TAKE A LEAVE OF ABSENCE
AND KNOW THAT MY HAND IS FULLY UPON YOU
BUT THE WRITING YOU WILL NOT DO FOR A FEW DAYS
WE HAVE BUSINESS ELSEWHERE
THE DOCTOR'S FOR ONE

BUT KNOW THAT YOU HAVE LEARNED THIS LESSON WELL
AND TO EACH PERSON YOU MEET WILL I REVEAL THEIR SOUL'S DESIRE
SO THAT YOU WILL ONLY BE JOINED WITH THOSE
WHO SEEK OUT LOVE - PURE LOVE - MY LOVE
TOO MANY OTHERS PASS BY THE SIDE OF THE ROAD
AND WE ARE NOT PART OF THEIR AGENDA
WE DO NOT PLAY BY THEIR RULES
OF COURSE, NOT
FOR WE PLAY BY ONLY ONE RULE
LOVE

SHALOM, LITTLE ONE
AND YOU WILL RISE UP SOON TO RIDE YOUR BIKE AGAIN
YOUR TROPHY BIKE
AND I WILL SET ALL IN ORDER
AND A CHURCH OF LOVE WE WILL BUILD
AND THE PEOPLE WILL NOT HAVE 2 FOOT HIGH HAIR
BUT HEARTS OF GOLD
FOR ME AND YOU
AND ALL

SHALOM
QUIET NOW

____________________
Sunday, July 30, 2000

I guess this is the last day of Glory
I hope that I have learned all that I need to learn to progress
into all that You have for me to do
Just a few minutes ago,
I saw in a vision that I was handed a very, very small gold staff,
but off in the distance was a full-sized staff reserved with my name on it
I took the small staff but asked You how I could attain the larger one
You spoke to me to simply let go of all the ways that people have failed me
and so, I released the memories and the people into Your Hands
and the larger one was given unto me in short order
I do want to walk away clearly
I don't want to hold grudges or be angry
simply because someone had to play a part in my progress
It's all very simple and if I could begin over again
with each person I would
but for now and for this hour
Everyone
at least, most everyone is filed away in my memory
Since the accident I have begun to recall things slowly
and God showed me simple brown files
where my memories of people are kept
The people remain in their file unless there is contact between us
If it is not a contact of "love" then I simply place
the person back in their file
after we talk
Right or wrong
I don't know
but this is what God has shown me to do

IT IS RIGHT, MY FRIEND
FOR WE WILL MOVE AHEAD ONLY WITH THOSE OF LOVE
THE REST WILL REMAINED FILED AWAY
YOU HAVE LOST NOTHING
BUT FOR THOSE YOU HAVE THOROUGHLY FORGIVEN FROM THE PAST
THEY WILL BE FREE TO ADVANCE FROM THEIR FILE AND CONTACT YOU
I WILL GIVE SOME A NEW LOVE DEEP WITHIN THEIR HEARTS
AND THEY WILL BECOME ALLIES
WHERE BEFORE THEY WERE ENEMIES OF BOTH THE CROSS AND US
BUT THIS IS A NEW DAY AS I PROMISED FOR YOU ON THIS DATE
A BRAND NEW DAY
AND YOU WILL HEAL
AND YOU WILL BE WHOLE SOON
BUT THE ARM WHICH THREW THE FOOTBALLS
CAN NOW ONLY CATCH THEM
AND THAT IS WHAT I HAVE FOR YOU TO DO IN THIS DAY AND TIME
YOU HAVE THROWN OUT THE WORD FOR 6 LONG YEARS
BUT CHILD, NOW IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO SCORE
LET THE OTHERS THROW TO YOU
CATCH AND RUN!
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE DAYS AHEAD HOLD
BUT I PROMISE YOU, MY FRIEND
YOU WILL SURELY REAP ALL THAT YOU HAVE SOWN
ALL
AND THAT, IS A PROMISE OF GOOD THINGS
GREAT THINGS
FOR YOU HAVE DONE ALL THAT I HAVE ASKED
AND WHEN I HAVE ALLOWED YOU TO BE ATTACKED
ALMOST TO FULL DESTRUCTION
YOU JUST RETURN TO MY FACE
AND YOUR LOVE FOR ME DOES NOT CHANGE
IS NOT ALTERED BY YOUR SITUATION AND WOUNDS

STAND TALL, YOUNG ONE
FOR THE PASSAGE WAY TO GLORY IS NOT AN EASY ONE
THE FIRST DAY IT WAS ALL CLOUD-FUN
BUT TO DEATH I PUT THE REMAINDER OF YOU
UNTIL YOU COULD RISE UP AND TAKE THE STAFF
AND WALK INTO THE GLORY FULLY-EARNED
I LOVE YOU, LITTLE ONE
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF
I LOVE YOU

THE DAYS ARE LONG RIGHT NOW
AND YOU ARE SO BORED, BUT LOOK UNTO THE HILLS
FOR I WILL KEEP YOU BUSY IN THE COMING DAYS
I WILL
ALL OF 15 YOU FIRST CAME TO ME AND BORED YOU WERE
YOU CHALLENGED THIS GOD
THAT YOU HAD HEARD OF TO REVEAL MYSELF
AND THAT I HAVE DONE OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER
BUT I SPEAK TO YOU THIS DAY IN A NEW WAY
I DO NOT SPEAK TO YOU AS A CHILD
BUT AS A REIGNING KING
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO NOW?
WHAT WOULD PUT THE GLEAM BACK IN YOUR EYES?
WHAT WOULD MAKE YOUR DAY, MY FRIEND?

Ever since the accident, I shy away even more from people
(the black-eye doesn't help!)
I don't long to be with anyone - just You
I like the cloud-life but it is a bit of a hyper existence
I guess I want to touch people with the Truth of WHO YOU ARE
and what You desire to do with them and through them
I want to be able to walk into a room and have the people present
know their Calling and Your Love over them
without them looking at me as "the answer"
I want the awareness to just simply come
and that I would remain anonymous

OH, LIKE A SECRET-AGENT PERSON?

Yeah - I would remain completely unknown and yet, the people
would know You in a deeper and more concrete way

HOW DO YOU SUPPOSE THAT THIS CAN HAPPEN?

I'm leaving that up to You
I thought that because You asked me my desires that You would also know
my desire and know how to fulfill it

AND I DO
BUT IS THAT WHAT IS BEST FOR MY KINGDOM?
WHY DO YOU SHY AWAY FROM PEOPLE?

I guess I'm afraid that I'll be hurt
and my utmost ministry is to be Your Love
I don't want the hardness of people's hearts to change how I respond to You

WHAT IF I PROTECTED YOU "BENEATH MY WINGS"
AND ONLY ALLOWED THOSE OF GREAT LOVE TO SURROUND YOU
WOULD YOU THEN SPEAK TO THE MASSES
EVEN IF YOUR NAME WAS KNOWN?

 What are my other choices?

DO YOU WANT TO DO WHAT IS BEST FOR MY KINGDOM?

If it does not detract in any way from my Love for You
and my time with You

WHAT HAPPENED IN YOUR ACCIDENT?
EVEN IN THE MIDST OF YOUR ACCIDENT I WAS WITH YOU TOUCHING YOU
AND PROTECTING YOU

Yeah, I guess I talked so much when I finally became conscious
that they thought I was drunk

BUT YOU WERE
YOU WERE IN MY PRESENCE
AND SAFELY PROTECTED FROM THEIR WORDS
WHAT IF YOUR SPEAKING ENGAGEMENTS WERE SIMILAR TO THAT?
EVEN AS YOU WOULD SEE THEM AS "DIFFICULTIES"
I WILL SURELY WRAP YOU IN MY PRESENCE
AND ALL THAT WILL BE KNOWN IS MY WORDS
DO YOU REMEMBER ANY OF THE ACCIDENT?

No

AND THAT IS HOW MY SPIRIT WILL FALL UPON YOU
AND YOU WILL NOT REMEMBER ALL THAT YOU SAID
OR ALL THAT HAPPENED
WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Can I change my name and have 2 foot high hair?
. . . . But as the song plays in the background,

"Just to be with You
I would do anything
There's no price that I wouldn't pay
I would give my life away."

Let's face it, Friend, I've got to be with You
and I will do what You have planned
but remember - always, always remember
that I only do it
to be with You

AND I WITH YOU, YOUNG FRIEND
WE HAVE PASSED THROUGH A PASSAGE THESE TWO WEEKS
AND YOU ARE FULLY PREPARED TO DO ALL
THAT I ASK IN THE COMING DAYS
YOU WILL SURELY BE FULL OF MY SPIRIT WHEN YOU SPEAK
AND THE PEOPLE'S WORDS AND REACTIONS
WILL HAVE NO EFFECT UPON YOU
BUT I WILL SUP WITH YOU IN A TENDER EMBRACE
WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE
THIS IS MY WILL
YOU NEED NOT CHANGE YOUR NAME
I HAVE ALREADY DONE THAT FOR YOU WHEN I CALLED YOU OUT AS "TERAH"
AND AS FAR AS THE 2 FOOT HIGH HAIR
THIS IS NOT YOUR DESIRE
FOR YOU CHOOSE TO HIDE AND REMAIN UNKNOWN
BUT KNOW THAT FROM ALL THE SPEAKING ENGAGEMENTS
I WILL RECEIVE THE GLORY
ALL OF IT
AND THAT IS YOUR DESIRE
THAT IS YOUR TOTAL DESIRE

You know me well

COME WITH ME INTO THE GLORY DEEPER
AS YOU SLEEP THIS NIGHT
FOR I WILL TAKE YOU WHERE NO MAN HAS GONE BEFORE
BUT YOU WILL NOT SPEAK OF IT
FOR WE HAVE WORK TO DO WHICH MUST BE DONE IN SECRET
FOR THIS SHORT PERIOD OF TIME
WHILE YOUR BONES HEAL
I WILL REMAKE YOU AND JOIN YOU
COMPLETELY TO ME AND MY SPIRIT
AND EACH WORD WILL BE MINE
AND EACH MOTION WILL BE MINE
AND YOU ARE ALREADY ALL MINE
ALL MINE
MY PRIZE
MY JOY
MY FRIEND
MY LOVE


And You are mine forevermore . . .